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Name: John
Birthday: 1/28/1984
Interests: Lifting, motorcycles, photography, travel, people, love, and happiness.
Expertise: I am an expert at nothing. I am good with mechanics and electronics. And I enjoy reading, writing, and loving.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Engineering
Message: message meEmail: email me
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AIM:  jngerber
Member Since:
2/1/2004
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| Someday I'll read through a bunch of that historic shit that's now years old and see how I've grown and changed. I don't know if it'll last or not, but I think I'm going to write on this thing again so that I can pull my thoughts together. 'Cause if there's one thing in my life that seems to take a lot of energy, it's pulling my thoughts together and/or making myself not think so hard about certain things...
Life's a lot different now then the last time I wrote here. I'm finishing 3 years of employment at International Paper in Franklin, VA. I was a process engineer in the paper mill for about a year and a half, then I moved to power and recovery and have been a maintenance foreman since then. It was just announced a couple days ago that the mill will be closed permanently by the spring. So now I have some decisions to make and some hasty work to do to get ready for a move to another city, state, mill, job, etc. A new life seems like an exhilerating thing, but it is a little daunting at the same time. I'll be aight.
Kristin and I broke up about 3 months ago, but it's been dragging out somewhat since then. Hopefully not for much longer. Closure is good for this situation. Not that I couldn't talk to her later from now, but I definitely think we need to go our separate ways for a while.
I got some other things going on too, but I'll write about them another time. Moment of zen: love, time, circumstance... none of it is meant for convenience, but it can sure make or break your day. I'm happy though, definitely am. Wish I could have what makes me happy with me all the time. Maybe time and circumstance will go my way.
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| The Loverboy Random Gentle Love Master (RGLM) FACT: You embody the German principle of Konstantzusammenschaft, which is best described in English (without using the obscure English word “sammenschaft”) as “eternal togethermanship”. Well-liked. Well-established. You are The Loverboy. Loverboys thrive in committed, steady relationships—as opposed to, say, Playboys, who want sex without too much attachment. You’ve had many relationships and nearly all of them have been successful. You’re a nice guy, you know the ropes, and even if you can be a little hasty with decisions, most girls think of you as a total catch. Your hastiness comes off as spontaneity most of the time anyhow, making you especially popular in your circle of friends, too. You know not to make the typical Loverboy mistake of choosing someone who appreciates your good humor and popularity, but who offers nothing in return. You belong with someone outgoing, independent, and creative. Otherwise, you’ll get bored. And then instead of surprising her with flowers or a practical joke, you’ll surprise her by leaving. | | |
| I'm no fan of Engineer's Bookstore, they just caused my account to
overdraft 5 times! 5 times because I thought I had the funds in the
account to cover everything I needed, yet the bookstore somehow
registered as too little an amount in the pending reference and when it
cleared it whiped me out. SO they stolen $150 from me now, and I
can't get it back. What a fuckin expensive lesson. I hate
it. It made my day a little less happy. Also, mi profesora
de espanol told me that my diarios was too advanced for the beginner's
class. So I went back into the classroom and spoke to her, to try
to let her know that I can look things up and take my time writing and
get things right, and yes, write more advanced than someone who knows
no spanish. But I can't speak actively, and I thought that was
what the class was for. I didn't know any spanish from high
school, it was a joke. I could say anything, but I can use
context clues and conjugates to figure things out. I can do that
just from living in a world that is filled with spanish signs and
sounds. So, Profesora Gordon didn't take it, all she said was, "I
think half the class has had spanish before and this class is for true
beginners. We can't do anything about it now because registration
is closed so..." I was just upset that she didn't think I was
doing well and learning. I wanted her to be happy that I was so
interested in learning and speaking spanish well. OH well, no
reception there. what a day.
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| I feel a little obligated to write here, not truly inspired tonight. At least not to write here, or gush you may say. Just showed the apartment to two guys that went to school with Kristin and Erin back in the day, they seemed to like the place, we'll see if they liked it enough. They asked for a dishwasher and some other concerns, I think most of them will be taken care of, but I just don't see the dishwasher working out. I reckon we'll see. But if they move in, I'll move into the downstairs bedroom... which will be nice in some ways and not as nice in others. But I am not unhappy about it for sure. I really hope they want to rent the place and all my cares will fly away, well, at least most of them. I need to call them and talk about the security deposit, I forgot to mention that while they were here, I guess I'll stop typing here and take care of that. | | |
| I guess just a quick update type thing. My computer has been hit
by lightning or a power surge and has been rendered unusable for
now. I have been trying to fix the problem in the boot volume,
which won't allow windows to load, but to no satisfaction. Matt
is usually kind enough to allow me to use his laptop and I imagine I'll
be back into the habit of going to school to use the computers
there.
Work is ok, though I am constantly out of money. I never found a
second job, I tried, perhaps not with the greatest desperation or lack
of care of what the job was. But none the less, I am without a
second job and scraping the change together most of the time. Its
ok though, I'll make my rent, and I'm hoping to figure something out to
be able to have some money for Washington, where I'll be in about two
weeks for about a week and a half visiting Kristin and driving home
with her. Really my life is still very easy, if I didn't do some
of the extracurricular activities I have this summer - weddings, visit
to DC - then I'd have some extra money put away and I'd feel a lot
better. But I also enjoy those extracurriculars, in fact there's
just about nothing you could do to keep me from going to see
Kristin. So its a give and take.
Lynda has moved out of our apartment in ATL. She opted to move
back home and attend West GA College. I was very disappointed, I
don't think West Ga is as good a school as Georgia State. I don't
think the people there are as good to be around as those you can find
in ATL or at GA State. And I was disappointed because she didn't
even try to make it through another school year here, which is what I
was trying to help her do by creating a happier living environment, yet
she decided, after committing to my apartment and new living
arrangments, after a month or so of being here, that she would rather
be back home and she made the arrangments to move back there without
enlightening me about such thoughts or actions until after the
paperwork had been finished. I was bitter. I have only just
begun to be cool about it, mostly because I gave up on being bitter or
caring. But now that I have to find not one but two new roommates
for the fall, I am carrying more burden than I had planned and am not
any happier for it.
On the happy side of things, Kristin and I have survived a great
portion of our two months apart now and in good shape I think. I
think we will be just as strong, if not stronger, together when she is
back here in GA. I am missing her terribly and can't wait to have
her company again. I'll spare you all the rest of my feelings on
that avenue.
And I guess I'm done for now, I've written much more than I had planned
so I must quit now. Talk to you all later.
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